I haven’t blogged since my birthday as lots has been happening in my life. Too much to share right now, suffice to say, I’ve been taking stock of my life, figuring out what my Heartsong is, and with the drive and support of a fabulous mentor, I have started making headway with my life.
Back in 2003, I had the wonderful opportunity to go to Auckland, New Zealand, to film LES MILLS BODYBALANCE 23. I think I was the first presenter on a “video” from outside of New Zealand/Australia so it was such an honour to be invited.
I learnt a lot about myself on that trip …
Why am I there?
Am I good enough?
How to take and process feedback
How to rise to the occasion
… and much more.
All in all, it was a pretty intense week of self-observation but what I got from that, was something so much more.
I remember flicking through the television channels and the David Letterman Show was on. He was interviewing a young boy, called Mattie Stepanek. Wow! So much inspiration in such a small boy. He was extremely profound and all I remember now about that interview, was his response when asked if he was afraid of death (Matty passed away in 2004) and his reply was no; but he was afraid of dying, the pain that he will suffer.
That afternoon, I went for a walk into the city and stumbled upon a bookstore and on the very first shelf of books I walked up to, Matty’s book Heartsong was staring me in the face. I bought it. Read it. And, his poem, Heartsong, inspired the relaxation script I wrote for filming.
I am sharing this with you now because I stumbled upon this clip from Oprah Winfrey’s website and it stirred my heart.
If you haven’t read his poem before, here it is. By reading it, I hope you understand what I mean when I say I’ve been figuring out what my Heartsong is, and that I am now working on manifesting it fully.
I have a song, deep in my heart,
and only I can hear it.
If I close my eyes and sit very still
it is so easy to listen to my song
When my eyes are open
and I am so busy and moving and busy,
if I take time and listen very hard,
I can still hear my heartsong.
It makes me feel happy.
Happier than ever.
Happier than everywhere,
and everything and everyone in the world.
Happy like thinking about
Going to Heaven when I die.
My heartsong goes like this-
I love you! I love you!
How happy can you be!
How happy can you make this whole world be!
And sometimes it’s other
Tunes and words, too.
But it always sings the same special song.
But do you know what?
All people have a special song
Inside their hearts!
Everyone in the whole world has a special heartsong.
If you believe in magical, musical hearts.
And if you believe you can be happy
Then you, too, will hear your song.
Mattie J. Stepanek